|If it's not one thing, it's another...
||[Dec. 4th, 2006|03:26 pm]
I'll be moving back to my mom's, in Clearwater, in mid-February. That so much isn't the main thing I'm stressing over... it's more about "How will I fit in my turns to have Olivia, and everything else going on in my life?".
If I was only going to be working one job after I move back, I probably wouldn't worry so much. But I'll be having two jobs to help pay my debt off faster, which makes it a little harder to justify taking days off as much as I'll be. What if they give me a hard time? What if they screw with my hours because of it? Am I going to get help from either my mom or Olivia's father in transporting her back and forth to me sometimes? Having two jobs isn't going to help with my fear, as mentioned in the first paragraph. I know it's what I have to do, but spending time with those I love (including Olivia) is important also.
Managing my time is and will be sooo hard.
Not to mention the restlessness I've been feeling, the boredom... despite things I could be doing. I just keep thinking "When is February going to be here?" I'm kind of terrified of moving back, despite everyone I care about living there... I guess it's just I've gotten used to Palm Beach, and this apartment, the dog... stupid things, perhaps. There's all kinds of feelings I'm having, and it's driving me nuts.