||[May. 18th, 2004|02:55 am]
This is not apatheticism, or depression, or anything like that talking... but I seriously beg you all to unfriend me, considering the fact my entries are spaced days apart (starting to delve into weeks)... and I rarely, if ever, read the journals of others anymore. It's not that i'm super-crazy busy, but admittedly I have been a little busier than is normal for me. |
Gone are the days of stalking LiveJournal/blogs/whatever. Gone are the days of talking for hours with people online. Gone are the days of trying to meet new people all the time. I talk to less than one handful of people these days (excluding my mom)... Hsiaokwai, Chelsea, and Vincent for the most part.
I suppose I've been worrying some by not appearing on LJ or IM programs, or not replying to the trickle of e-mails, or ignoring my cellphone. I'm at the computer when i'm home, but too lazy to do anything but vegetate and read the same shit I always do nowadays. Rehash, rehash, rehash.
And besides, while I like people caring about me, I don't like appearing like an attention-whore, I guess. If any of you haven't noticed by now, I usually tend to fade into the background. And ignored, but that's a different story.
I don't have a whole lot to write about these days. No, i'm not discontinuing writing in this journal (fuck trying to write in paper ones, I write more when typing on the computer), because i'm on a slow start to a life full of THRILLS, CHILLS, ADVENTURE, AND EXCITEMENT! Hah. =P
I'm just in the doldrums, right now. I mean, I still do things occasionally, but just things like playing pool and a rare movie with Chelsea, really. And seeing Hsiaokwai when I can, until I move in. Not that I don't enjoy that time spent, or that it's not memorable in its own little ways, only in my opinion is it not worth writing about, not even in my private journal(s). I guess I feel that way, due to making something small seem big, writing about one situation too much.
Kind of like this entire entry, LOL.
[to prevent any confusion, this is desire, who has [yet again] changed her lj name.]
doesn't matter how frequently/infrequently you post - in fact, you still post more frequently than some of my real-life friends [i can't even remember the last time my best friend posted in hers!]
point is, reading posts on the interweb is not what friendship is about. i've a growing collection of lj friends myself, true, but whenever i find out that someone close to me has one, they're added, no matter how little they actually use it.
sad to say, i've been in hermitude as of late, and therefore haven't been talking to anyone really. but if you deliberately cut off aim, cell phone, or [going against my main point here] lj - how am i to talk to you now that i'm s--l--o--w--l--y getting out of that mode? i *still* haven't gathered up enough balls to call you legitimately [not that i'm scared of you; i just have phonophobia].
now i'm rambling, when all i wanted to say is, you can't get rid of me that easily, so nyah-nyah-nyah!!
I wondered who "fayestar" belonged to. :P
But the point of this entry was not solely about rarely writing in or reading LJ anymore (although it was a main point), it was also the fact I'm getting bad about even calling people on the phone.
I guess I get overwhelmed a tad too easily.
But!! I don't want to unfriend you! :[ <3<3!!
I'm not going to unfriend you either. Personally, my life has been the same way and I have been spending little time on AIM or LJ. I rarely read my friends list anymore either, because there are so many people on it, so when I do check my friends I check their individual journals. ^^;
Just because we can't see frequent posts from you or talk to you every day doesn't mean we still can't stay friends... besides, at some point, everyone needs to start focusing on their real life.
I would never unadd you! ;x;