||[Apr. 1st, 2004|12:30 pm]
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I bailed again on karaoke tonight with Natalie.
I called in sick to work, after arranging to work today (today was originally scheduled off), so I could get Saturday and Sunday off... to go to West Palm Beach and Orlando.
All this, because of my fucking nerves. Of course I had to lie and say I had the flu, to everyone including my mother (so she wouldn't call me irresponsible). Given, I have been rundown lately, due to not eating much and things like that.
I need the hours. I feel really bad about doing all that. I definitely won't be doing this again, not in the forseeable future. I just couldn't go into work, being the basketcase I am right now. Most females have reasonable excuses, such as excruciating cramps from menstrual cycles. I don't have that problem, so I claim my nerves... which, in all actuality, is a real problem with me. The only time I'm ever focused on anything, is when I don't have time to waste, and I *have* to get certain things done. That, or something is bothering me so much, I can't possibly NOT focus on it, until whatever it is, is resolved.
odangoatama, now I know exactly how you feel, when your nerves get worked up. *hugs*