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what am I doing wrong? [Mar. 1st, 2004|10:49 pm]
桜井香津美
[Current Mood |meh]

Maybe it's just because I woke up, maybe it's because I think everyone is trying to stay away from me, maybe I just need to be in a mental hospital...

But I really don't want to go to Chicago now. Up until now, I was both excited and nervous, but now it's far more nervous than excited... i'm starting to have second-thoughts.

As soon as I schedule a vacation, everybody wants to do something (for once). And I hate that guilt feeling I get when I tell them I can't.

And with all the guys I've been meeting so far from those personals.... it's starting to get to me, i've only met 3 so far, but, still. Wasting their time knowing a spark probably won't ignite, knowing nothing'll happen, and worst of all... them not getting back to me after we've met. People are busy, sure, but does it really take a week or more, for a response? Is my company really not enjoyable? Why do people shie away from me? I can live without a partner, but it doesn't mean my desire ever wanes for it.

I feel sick. I wish I wasn't so weak.
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From: kimry
2004-03-02 12:34 am (UTC)
They are Class A fucks.
That is my answer to everything.

Ditch Imperialistic America! Come party up North with your sisters and brothers of the wolves! Ahh, land of legal pot and free health care, it beckons to you. Weedle weedle!

*chirp*
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